Finally its making sense...

I'm starting to actually understand things better. Jess and I finally found a Church this past Sunday to call 'home' and that is exactly what it felt like when I walked in... I turned to Jess and was like Jess I feel like I'm at home... I like it here... the feeling was amazing and it just felt right. Its been something I've been missing in my life. I knew I wanted to find a Church but with Jess always working on Sundays and never really exploring towards the church scene alone... I didn't know how to actually find one...until Luke came into Jess and mines life... it was about a month ago when I was working a night at Starbucks and Jessica came in when she got off work.. and well this boy came up to the register and was like how are you? and I was like fine.. and then I was like actually truthfully my foot is killing me bc a mosquito bite me and its hardcore itching and I can't itch it because I'm working... and he was just like whoa... lol and then we started to talk and then I left to make some coffee and he started to talk to Jess and well Long story short they exchanged phone numbers because he told her about his church... and jess told him that we were looking for a church... and well Sunday night we finally made it there!!!

I've gone to many churches in my life and well last night I felt like where I was, was exactly where I needed to be in my life... its kinda strange to take a moment and just be like whoa this is exactly where I'm supposed to be in my life... sure sometimes I question things and ask tons of questions (poor Jessica...) and well when I finally just open my eyes and see that this is where I'm supposed to be, what a great feeling... and well its all starting to come together.. last night Jess and I met some really great people and we ended up hanging out with the group after Church at the Coffee Club and it was fun... we actually had friends outside of Starbucks and it felt beyond right.

I have questioned life and faith a lot.. and I still do... I ask Jessica questions daily about God/Jesus and why (I'm sure she sometimes just wishes I'd just understand and stop asking questions...)

Last night though the message was perfect.. it was just about living life and being happy with where you are RIGHT NOW... because God has a plan for you and you just have to give yourself to him to allow him to strength you to where you are supposed to be...

After Church Jess and I went up the Pastor to say Hello and he talked to us for a little bit and well he was like he has churches all across Australia so where ever we go we'll have a place to call home... and he asked us how long we'd be in Brisbane and we said Febuary and he said okay by then you'll be family so I'll be sure to take care of you... He was a very sweet and funny Old man.. I liked him...

The youth Pastor - Grant - he was orignally from Georgia and moved to China and then Canada and then Australia... he was beyond amazing lol he thought Jess and I were 17-18... ahah we were like umm 22 thank you... I told him I want to get involved within the church as much as possible.. he said wonderful! I don't know exactly what my calling is to do I know its something to do with Children... and well I'd love to get into Church more because the faith behind life is what matters the most... I want to find that love that is forever and I believe through Christ its possible... its something I haven't found because I haven't been looking in the right places...

I'm starting to look at the future and not the past because the future is what matters... not the past... hard to do.. but the feeling behind it isn't...

Letting go of imperfections - no one is perfect - holding on to a couple of pounds or wishing I had something I don't isn't something that will matter in 20 years or even in one year but feeling happiness is something that will last a lifetime - I wanna be happy and that is what I'm starting to do... I'm starting to finally just let go.. and be happy...

finding myself...

thats something I talk to Jess about ALL of the time... I want to find exactly what I'm supposed to do with my life.. and I believe in the next couple of months I'll finally be able to say exactly who I am and what I'm doing with my life.. I'm finally going to be able to JUST be me!!!

starbucks is there... and there is 11 weeks left... crazy if you ask me... don't know what we're doing afterwards.. we'll see... Just do me a favour and pray for us bc we really want to do something BUT i've been scared to call sooooooo tomorrow I shall call...

I'm off to bed because I have work tomorrow of Course! Yay Halloween is this upcoming weekend!!!! going to the gold coast!!! should be fun!!!

xoxo

dayyyyy

cheers!