My better other half...

whats on my mind today?.. i'll give you one guess... yep Neil :) I know such a hard question hey!?

Well, today I'm writing a random blog... haha! when do I not write a random blog!? lol

I can remember when I was a little girl I would dream about who I would spend the rest of my life with.. I always pictured him as a tall dark and handsome man (i know so unique..) i was like 5 years old..give me a break ;) lol.. and well...

In my later years of life, after countless number of doughbag bfs I started to doubt I'd ever get married...or I'd get married at a young age... The day before I left for Australia I went out to Lunch with my dad and I asked him 'Dad do you think I'll ever get married?' - and he said, 'yes but not til your at least 31...or 32.... you still have to much of an adventure life ahead of you...' oh little did he know... that little adventure life of me found the man I married...

Also before I left I had a couple people say, 'Watch you'll go over to Australia fall in love and never come home...' well that kinda sorta happened... I did fall in love... and well part me is still in Australia... so they were a little right...

I didn't think I'd get married but I knew I deserved an amazing man.. he just hadn't been presented in my life yet... during my travels of Australia I thought hmm I wonder if I'll find my one true love here... and well I lost that thought after awhile... and then I moved to Springsure and thought... guess I'm going home single everyone was so wrong.. lol and well little did I know...

boom Neil... boom love... boom happy... boom i'm married!

Sure, I didn't picture it like that... but would I change anything!? nope... I've never been happier in my life... Neil is definitely my other half... or should I say.. 'better half'... he completes me more than I like to say at times.. so being away from him kills me...

When I drive I listen to country music and well EVERY love song on there reminds me of Neil.. seriously its like even though Neil is on the other side of the world he is still part of my daily thoughts in more ways than one...

When I talk about him.. I go on and on cause he's everything to me.... He is the answer to my prayers... he's the voice I want to hear... everyday that passes I only love him more...he is everything i ever wanted...

This song is by Carrie Underwood and when i heard it I was like whoa.. that is my new fav song for new... he'll probably understand why it suits him so well....

"Inside Your Heaven"

I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
If mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holdin you until the day I die
And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven

Another song by Carrie is 'Some Hearts' and well when I heard this song I couldn't stop thinking about Neil... it fits me beyond fits me... perfect song for me and my heart..

I've never been the kind that you'd call lucky
Always stumblin' around in circles
But I must have stumbled into something
Look at me
Am I really alone with you?
I wake up feeling like my life's worth living
Can't recall when I last felt that way
Guess it must be all this love you're giving
Never knew never knew it could be like this
But I guess

Some hearts
They just get all the right breaks
Some hearts have the stars on their side
Some hearts,
They just have it so easy
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes
Some hearts just get lucky, lucky sometimes

Now who'd have thought someone like you could love me
You're the last thing my heart expected
Who'd have thought I'd ever find somebody
Someone who someone who makes me feel like this
Well I guess

Some hearts
They just get all the right breaks
Some hearts have the stars on their side, yes
Some hearts,
They just have it so easy
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes
Ohhhhhh

Even hearts like mine
Get lucky, lucky sometimes

Even hearts like mine
Ohhhhhhhh

Some hearts,
They just get all the right breaks
Some hearts have the stars on their side
Some hearts,
They just have it so easy
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes

Some hearts
They just get all the right breaks
Some hearts have the stars on their side, yes
Some hearts,
They just have it so easy
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes
Some hearts just get lucky sometimes

Wishing he was here... or I was there....

I've always been a girl to make wishes but never had I wished so much in my life until now.. I wish I didn't have to be so far away from the one I love... I never thought I'd live on the other side of the world from my HUSBAND!!!

At night I lay in bed and just think.. this sucks... I hate it... I hate not being able to look at him eye to eye and say, 'I love you...' I know this time apart is truly sucky.. BUT it's only for the next couple weeks... and I'm praying after our case manager gets my police checks I get granted my visa and I can fly home with Neil when he comes here for the holidays!!!

I can't believe I've been home for 2 and half weeks... it feels weird to be home.. its almost like I don't belong here anymore.. weird how you can 'grow apart' from your house and life you had for over 22 years... just weird... and very true... especially when your life path changes and becomes beyond amazing...

Yesterday was Neil's and mines 6 month anniversity :) feels like so much longer!! When I talk to him I sometime have to stop and just think about everything he is saying because he always makes me feel like the most special girl alive and well... he just makes me think about how lucky I am to have him in my life...its almost like i have to pinch myself just to see if I'm awake or dreaming..

I was talking to him the other day and I was just telling him how I never knew there was a love like this possible... I know I had always dreamed and wished for love... but to actually live and feel it!? wow its beyond amazing and I feel beyond lucky...

I could talk about Neil for hours and hours... yet right now I'll spare you... ;) and just know I'm beyond happy and feel like the luckiest girl alive.. I won't be boastful about it because thats not what love is about... I believe that actions speak louder than words...

Sometimes I'm still that girl that worries over little things that I know deep down don't matter.. but with him... its different..

Sometimes I look up at the sky at night and thank all my lucky stars :)

I'm beyond thankful for the last 6 months of my life and can't wait for the rest of it!!! Especially with the hubby... I will try my best to update you on my life and such... but no promises!

Just cross your fingers and pray to baby Jesus for us that I get the visa granted in Nov... and able to fly home with Neil in January... Thanks!!!

love always.

xoxo

dayyyyy